I usually don't write two blogs in one day.But for some reason this day it was different.I had mentioned to hubstead about people doing their own homeschooling of their children because of these shootings.I thought that maybe we are going backwards instead of forwards.After all we are growing our own food,canning,making our own clothes,staying around the farm,raising animals for meat and milk and eggs,oh and cheese.Why go to the grocery store anymore.This keeps a person so busy there is no time for T.V. or even being on the internet unless you want to look something up.Back then it was talking to more experienced farmers to learn what was wrong with your garden or livestock.Some still do this too.If you wanted to go to "town" you just got into your horse and buggy and go.Getting close to that because of the gas prices if they go up again.During the winter if you were fit,you used snowshoes to walk on.If not there was always a sleigh or horseback or wagon.Back then it was to survive and feed your family.So much has changed in our world now.The movement of getting back to our basics are growing stronger in alot of people and I think that is where we are headed.I hope so.I feel like people are are just dead dogged tired of living the way they are,we aren't made to live in this world as slaves to money.It's nice to have, comes in handy to buy those special things every now and then but not like what it has done to the human race.
In most religions we are told to be in Harmony with the earth,God put us here to take "care"of the earth not destroy it.We are to keep it clean and bountiful and green and to teach our children what each living thing is.To show compassion and restraint.To help when we can.To not be selfish and give what we can.I don't know about you but I would rather have this than what I have now.To say wait a minute this isn't working.If this is what it takes then so be it.I would rather have my peace and quiet and a compassionate attitude than the all the money in the world.Someone told me if you aren't happy with the way you live then change it.Looks like that is around the corner.Do what you love to do.Live the way you were meant to live.You have one life and only one.And FYI I am not afraid of anything in this world except one thing and that's if I do something wrong I get the wrath of God on me. Yes I do believe this ,it has been proven to me over and over.Since we have committed to this adventure we are starting,everything has fallen into place like it's meant to be.God gives you only as much as you can handle.He puts you where you are suppose to be.This is what I believe.
Ok now I'm done I just wanted to share something that was on my mind ever since I woke up this afternoon.I wonder what it's going to be like to live like my ancestors did.But with a few changes?
Saturday, December 15, 2012
What I know about Mental Illness
Ok this is going to be really hard to explain but hang in there with me.I am using myself as an example of this real story because I DO understand the state of mind the shooter was in.
As a child I was traumatized from age 5 to 14 and by the time I got into my teens I was totally out of control.Back then they called it schizophrenia but I could not talk to the doctors about what was really going on for fear of reprisal from the person who was abusing me.Later I was on Valiums to keep myself calmed down which lead to a attempted suicide.I was in a marriage I didn't want to be in and he also abused me.
Then came the drugs and alcohol including LSD,cocaine. Until I met my husband I am now married to.He told me it was either him or them.I chose him.Which I am happy about the choosing him too.Later a doctor that I gave my family history to told me I had a chemical imbalance and that is where the Bipolar came into the picture.You can look it up on Yahoo Health.Please look this up and get an understanding of the disorder.
Now let me explain the basics of trying to find a doctor to treat you.Remember the insurance companies come in the picture too.
If you have a doctor to treat you,great,you are in like flint.But these doctors charge alot of money to treat you for mental illness.Mine?for 15 minutes $90.00 bucks.Think if I wanted an hour? I only get maybe 10 to 15 minutes with my docotor to tell him what is going on,why?,I'm on medicaid and this is all I have right now.I get my meds but even these aren't working.So I have to keep going back and going back and be a guinea pig to find something that works.In the last two years since being treated I have gained 60 pounds off these meds.
It is expensive to take a person whether it's a child or teenager or an adult to see these doctors and then the insurance companies tell the doctors what they can do and not do.What they can prescribe to the patients.I have a book on these meds.I feel for parents when something is wrong with their children and can't get them help,it's a hard and cruel world out there.
Now here is another factor in this equation,parents who both work and even then they can't make ends meet because of bills being so high.What do you choose,food ,car payment,medicine,utilities to be paid?Little is left over by the time it's all said and done.If you have regular insurance you still have to pay the 20% that is left over.Which at times these people don't have.
Single parents with children are hit hardest,what does this have to do with mental illness? I tell you,it's called the stress factor.Parents get under stress which spirals down to the point that depression sets in and then a don't care attitude comes about.It happens it's a fact.Now we have a depressed parent and the child feeds off this and looks for other routes to feel wanted.This is what is wrong with our world now.We can't cure everyone but if you know someone having a problem you can help just by being there for them.Being supportive.
This chemical imbalance works like this-from my view-you live in a euphoric state of mind.Somethings are real some isn't.You can also hallucinate with an imbalance,thinking someone is out to get you or you think you are invinceable.You get the feeling you can get away with things and no one will notice.Anger is off the charts and you take it out on others.You also will mutilate yourself as in cutting yourself cause you want to "feel" something(which I have never done).And that comes down to not being able to "feel" because you shut down inside or numb yourself to the outside world therefore becoming antisocialable.It's a hellish state of mind and it's a place anyone would not want to be.But I've been there and back.
This is what is happening to people.This is the new generation of people here and it's here to stay if we don't change the system.This is reality people.We see it we hear it we try to hide from it but it won't go away.Unless Congress and the States come up with something different,we are in for a hard ride.I am still having to work out my state of mind,but it will get better when I get home because the doctors there are better than here.
I'm not going to get into the gun control issue or what I think should or should not be done.Only to say this,my husband is trying to get his FFL and on the paperwork,you have to have a background check and not be mentally ill.Beside most of these shootings have occurred with the person taking the guns from someone else.That enough said.
Have a great Saturday and we need to pray for the children and teachers and the parents of these children who lost their lives to this brutal shooting.
As a child I was traumatized from age 5 to 14 and by the time I got into my teens I was totally out of control.Back then they called it schizophrenia but I could not talk to the doctors about what was really going on for fear of reprisal from the person who was abusing me.Later I was on Valiums to keep myself calmed down which lead to a attempted suicide.I was in a marriage I didn't want to be in and he also abused me.
Then came the drugs and alcohol including LSD,cocaine. Until I met my husband I am now married to.He told me it was either him or them.I chose him.Which I am happy about the choosing him too.Later a doctor that I gave my family history to told me I had a chemical imbalance and that is where the Bipolar came into the picture.You can look it up on Yahoo Health.Please look this up and get an understanding of the disorder.
Now let me explain the basics of trying to find a doctor to treat you.Remember the insurance companies come in the picture too.
If you have a doctor to treat you,great,you are in like flint.But these doctors charge alot of money to treat you for mental illness.Mine?for 15 minutes $90.00 bucks.Think if I wanted an hour? I only get maybe 10 to 15 minutes with my docotor to tell him what is going on,why?,I'm on medicaid and this is all I have right now.I get my meds but even these aren't working.So I have to keep going back and going back and be a guinea pig to find something that works.In the last two years since being treated I have gained 60 pounds off these meds.
It is expensive to take a person whether it's a child or teenager or an adult to see these doctors and then the insurance companies tell the doctors what they can do and not do.What they can prescribe to the patients.I have a book on these meds.I feel for parents when something is wrong with their children and can't get them help,it's a hard and cruel world out there.
Now here is another factor in this equation,parents who both work and even then they can't make ends meet because of bills being so high.What do you choose,food ,car payment,medicine,utilities to be paid?Little is left over by the time it's all said and done.If you have regular insurance you still have to pay the 20% that is left over.Which at times these people don't have.
Single parents with children are hit hardest,what does this have to do with mental illness? I tell you,it's called the stress factor.Parents get under stress which spirals down to the point that depression sets in and then a don't care attitude comes about.It happens it's a fact.Now we have a depressed parent and the child feeds off this and looks for other routes to feel wanted.This is what is wrong with our world now.We can't cure everyone but if you know someone having a problem you can help just by being there for them.Being supportive.
This chemical imbalance works like this-from my view-you live in a euphoric state of mind.Somethings are real some isn't.You can also hallucinate with an imbalance,thinking someone is out to get you or you think you are invinceable.You get the feeling you can get away with things and no one will notice.Anger is off the charts and you take it out on others.You also will mutilate yourself as in cutting yourself cause you want to "feel" something(which I have never done).And that comes down to not being able to "feel" because you shut down inside or numb yourself to the outside world therefore becoming antisocialable.It's a hellish state of mind and it's a place anyone would not want to be.But I've been there and back.
This is what is happening to people.This is the new generation of people here and it's here to stay if we don't change the system.This is reality people.We see it we hear it we try to hide from it but it won't go away.Unless Congress and the States come up with something different,we are in for a hard ride.I am still having to work out my state of mind,but it will get better when I get home because the doctors there are better than here.
I'm not going to get into the gun control issue or what I think should or should not be done.Only to say this,my husband is trying to get his FFL and on the paperwork,you have to have a background check and not be mentally ill.Beside most of these shootings have occurred with the person taking the guns from someone else.That enough said.
Have a great Saturday and we need to pray for the children and teachers and the parents of these children who lost their lives to this brutal shooting.
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